Today I went to school and during first hour we had a motivational speaker about resilience. She was a woman who drove drunk 6 years ago and was in a crash. She had many severe physical injuries because of the accident, too graphic to describe here. She told us about how she was a 2 time all-American athlete who lost everything. She told us not to give up and not to judge people for their appearance. She was a very good speaker, but I started crying as soon I was in the bathroom afterwards. She went through so much yet manages to be happy, and nothing bad has happened to me yet I hurt myself and hurt inside. I feel selfish and horrible, like I have no right to hurt. 2 of my friends have been sexually assaulted. They are happy, they got over it and it made them stronger. I haven’t had that happen or been violated in any way, and I hurt myself and don’t want to live. They have hope and love life. I feel like I have no right to be hurting when nothing has happened to me. I feel even worse now though. I don’t know how to make my hurt go away, or lessen. I see myself as so pathetic and selfish and stupid because I have no real reason to be hurting. My friends have gotten better, so why can’t I?
hollie
People have different rates of getting over things and you may feel that your problems arent bad but they are anything that bothers you enough to hurt yourself then it is imoptant and i imagine that its important to your friends… how about you listen to a song for me it is called Better son or daughter by Rilo Kiley i promise this song will make you think about so much in your life…
I completely understand what you are saying. Sometimes, I look around at how bad the world is, and I feel selfish because my life is so good, and yet I take it for granted…I guess, in the end, your feelings are your feelings. We have to accept the way we are, perhaps try to better ourselves, but still deal with the problems that we have. Every flaw can be considered a unique work of art. We all just have to learn to examine them in an abstract way.