everytoime things start going well and eerything is perfect all of a sudden something will stress me out or make me feel sad or make me feel alon or maks m feel worthless and i dont know what to do. i know im not a bad person jus cuz ie made bad decisions but its so hard for m to loe myself. i si last night.  i dont know what to do anymor. i wnt for weeks without doing it n i finally started to believe i had control over my addiction. i was wrong. i fel like giing up i feel like i can stop this so why try. why not hurt myself so i can feel better? nothing elsr works i feel so alone and lost no one understands me thy jus think im crazy..i mean what kind of person would intentiionally hurt themseles. no one  understands.