you know… i’m new and my friends i need help.  my demons inside me are hurting me.  i have been a self injurier for 3 years,  i have stopped on and off and this is my longest one.  i haven’t injured myself in almost 36 weeks and i’m about to fall right in.  i found out recently i AM addicted to it.  how can i tell people that without sounding crazy?  when i see my injuries i see my stupidity but then i think maybe one more time will be okay.  how can i stop without feeling the withdrawl?  and i crazy for feeling this way?  should i get better help?  i can’t talk to the school concellour she won’t do anything.  it seems its me against the world and the world is winning.  may be the world is stronger and i’ll right back into SI.  am i crazy?