so this is the first time i have ever publically said i was a S.I.  i have usually kept it to myself and been rather quiet about it.  i have done this for about 7 years.  i am now 18.  it started when i was 11.  and i haven’t stopped since.  i  stopped for a while but now everything is falling apart and the jmonster is back.  the demon under my skin is back.  and i figured maybe if i could talk to others who knew what i was going through it might help me.  i’m hoping it will becuae if no i don’t know what to do.