I feel numb.  I’m sick and haven’t been to school at all this week. I haven’t done any school work including stuff that was due on monday and i have three different tests to make up. I’m suppossed to go back to school 2mrw. I’m dreading it. I already feel all panicky knowing i have tons of work to do (and tests to study for) tonight. But my head is throbbing and i’m tired. It seems impossible to do what i need to do feeling like this. Plus i feel all sad and empty. I don’t want to try. I completely lack motivation. I just want to curl into a ball and stay there forever. I keep hoping I’ll get sicker (even though i don’t want to be) so i wont have to go back to dealing with life. Or maybe won’t have to deal with the world ever again 🙁