I don’t normally post a whole lot on here, but lately I feel as if I have no one to really talk to anymore and I just need to get things out somehow. A good friend of mind just recently moved and is dealing with too much right now to also listen to me vent about life. My therapist is angry at me and it seems as if she doesn’t want me back. And my fiance is so wonderful and is so patient with me, but I feel like always unloading on him is taking its toll on him and our relationship. I need something else. I need someone to talk to that is not going to move away, give up on me, or feel like I am a burden to them.
I have been in a really dark place lately, and it is a struggle to do much of anything. I am trying to get that message across to my therapist, but the last time I saw her she was getting very frustrated with me and basically made me feel like I was annoying her and I was a waste of her time.
Previously, I was not like this. Sure I was engaging in SI and had some dark thoughts now and then, but now I feel like I am at a breaking point. I want to reach out to someone and just talk, but it is so hard when there is no one I can go to. What else am I supposed to do? I feel like giving up.