I am so ashamed right now. I gave in and SIed. I had been clean for 3 months!!! But see, my mother hates me, no lie. She got angry with me because I was in her way, and she started abusing and yelling at me. I’m sick of her so I fought back ONCE, and she started to go crazy on me. I don’t know what to do anymore, I feel so lost. My sister saw my injuries today and she was very disappointed…she’s the only person I have in the world and I want to make her proud. She said if I SI ONE MORE TIME, she’ll send me through therapy. Then she said if that doesn’t work, she has a plan B, but she wouldn’t tell me what it was. Someone please help me. I want to make my sister proud…what do I do?!?!?
Hey Roseanne, I want to tell you that set backs can hit no matter how long you’ve been “clean”. I was at one year(!) then last saturday… Well I’m at day 4 now!
You’re sister is like my friend Sam. They worry because they care and love us. To make her proud, all you have to do is keep fighting. Never give up on yourself.
I’ve been down the “I give up! I’m not worth the fight” road. It’s not a fun road… Nor will it help you in anyway.
Just stay strong, and talk to your sister next time you want to SI.