I’m not sure what to say. I have been injuring for the last six years. I started after my husband died. We were marred for seventeen years. I’ve been in long term treatment twice and in June I was in the hospital for a week because of my injuring.  It’s been three months since I have si. I really want to si. I can’t get it out of my mind.  I know I need to stop but I want to do it. I get relief for it.  I know it has become addicted to it. I have been clean from drugs for 23 years and ask myself why can’t I stop this.  I feel that I have replaced drugs with siing.  It makes me feel different like the drugs did. I feel stupid  writing this.  I have been on a lot of sights but have never wrote anything.  I can’t seem to change my mind about quitting si.  Any feed back would be helpful. Thanks.