I’m not sure what to say. I have been injuring for the last six years. I started after my husband died. We were marred for seventeen years. I’ve been in long term treatment twice and in June I was in the hospital for a week because of my injuring. It’s been three months since I have si. I really want to si. I can’t get it out of my mind. I know I need to stop but I want to do it. I get relief for it. I know it has become addicted to it. I have been clean from drugs for 23 years and ask myself why can’t I stop this. I feel that I have replaced drugs with siing. It makes me feel different like the drugs did. I feel stupid writing this. I have been on a lot of sights but have never wrote anything. I can’t seem to change my mind about quitting si. Any feed back would be helpful. Thanks.