This has been a horrible week.

I don’ t know why. I’ve been doing okay since school started, which is very surprising. Things have been going well. My grades are much better (I’m putting in effort this year unlike the last), I see a friend between each of my classes, and I feel better. But just this last week around Tuesday I started feeling horrible. I couldn’t see anything good.

One thing I have to look forward to is the summer when I get to see this boy I really like, but nothing has changed with us, but now I feel like something will and now it’s like there’s no light at the end of the tunnel anymore. I have nothing to look forward to and I really need something to. I just need to be able and look forward to something so I will have an inspiration to try, but it’s lost again.

Something worse? Well, I just realized tonight my dad is one of those people who thinks that anyone who needs a therapist is a pyscho. I have a therapist. Do you know what it’s like to have your dad think you’re an emotionally unstable, going no where, loser? Let me tell you, it’s not a pleasant thing to know.

I haven’t felt worse or been in more danger of SI.  I’m not sure what to do. How I can change…