Yesterday I gave in…  I SIed yesterday…. 

Why am I so weak?  How could I give in, again?  What’s wrong with me?!  How can I be so pathetic?  How could I disappoint everyone like this?   Why did I tell Sam?!  Now he’s in a state of panic because he doesn’t want me to get as bad as I was and he’s worried that he’ll never see me again.   Am I getting that bad again?  

Why did I do it again?