So… in two days it’ll be three weeks without S.I.ing. But it feels like everybody, and everything is taunting me… making me want to S.I. every second. I can’t stand it. I have to raise a ton of money for dance, and i’m scared that I won’t be able to do it and that I’ll be missing out on so many great oppurtunities. My parents are constantly yelling at me… I don’t know how much longer I’ll be able to last…

Yesterday in dance I was really depressed. People kept asking me if I was okay, and I had to plaster a smile on my face and pretend that everything is alright. But it isn’t. I’m losing who I am…