I haven’t S.I. ed in over two weeks now. But it feels like I’m an elastic band that’s being stretched to its fullest extent, and I don’t know how long it’ll be before it snaps back. Sometimes I don’t even feel like i want to stop. i dont know. I know that I have a great future as a dancer, but sometimes it’s just too much. I’m scared. I can’t stop thinking about it… I isolate myself from almost everybody who doesn’t know about my S.I.ing. I’m lonely… I’m usually depressed… I just feel like I’ve lost my spark. And i feel like evrybody’s against me. I take little things so seriously. I’m lost and scared.