I’m behaving very strangely and it worries me so much. Last year I got involved in a bad relationship and on numerous occasions I humiliated myself by deliberately suggesting my partner abuse me sexually. I was molested by a sibling as a child and I’m not sure why I’m acting in this way. The hurt and pain on the inside is unbearable when this reaction is triggered. Everytime I did it was during a aggressive argument. He is very dominating and I usually display this form of humiliation when the argument was made worse by me challenging him. I always feel so bad about myself after one of these self harm incidents. What could be the reason for this disturbing behavior? I am completely freaked out by myself. Yesterday in a outburst it happened again.
Please please please can someone help me? Please.