my story…

i started s.i. around april of this year. i was in a relationship with my at the time “bestfriend” he had s.i. before and i always thought about it but never did it. we got into an argument and he injured. it made me feel so bad instead of what he wanted. we argued alot and it made me start s.i.-ing. i didnt tell anyone and covered up so no one could see it. over the summer my cousin had spent the night and seen. she asked me to stop i said i’ll work at it. so me and my “bestfriend” stopped talking and i s.i. to tell myself it was over. its been over a month or a little more and i want to hurt myself again. my new bf knows what i went through and wanted me to promise i would stop. i told him i cant make a promise i cant keep. and the look in his eyes said he was pained by what i said. i want to s.i. but im trying to stop. my brothers annivarsy is coming up of when he past and its making want to s.i.