I feel nothing…  Saturday and Sunday if I had a tool I would have used it, but now…  I feel nothing. 

I was talking to a friend who’s depressed.  She had disappeared on me for a little while and I just thought I’d scared her off (something I seem to do a lot) but she was online the other night!  So I hadn’t scared her off!  She’d been in the hospital.

Now I’m in this very numb state.

I can’t feel anything.  I’m just trying to figure out if I’m crazy…    

My family is moving in one week and six days from today, the 15th.  And I’m thinking of doing things that I fought so hard to stop doing?!  Do I really want to be in the darkness of SI again?  Is this really what I want? 

One year today.  It’s been one year today since my family found out about my sickness.  Happy Anniversary!  Woo…