okay, so i recently had to tell one of my friends about my SI.

She is worried about me and is willing to help in any way she can. she even told me that if i need to get rid of my tools then she will come over and help me safety proof my room and possibly whole house.

I am very thankful that she is my friend and isn’t going to desert me, but, well she is the kind of person that will give me a while to decide if i want her help, and if i decide i don’t want her help, she will come over and help anyway [which is kinda bad cause i don’t think i want to stop SI-ing anymore].

i just…………..i don’t know what to do. i don’t know if i want to stop anymore. I’ve lost all but a tiny bit of hope, and i have a feeling that i will soon loose that too. =/

any help or advice would be much appreciated.

<3 Katey