okay, so i recently had to tell one of my friends about my SI.
She is worried about me and is willing to help in any way she can. she even told me that if i need to get rid of my tools then she will come over and help me safety proof my room and possibly whole house.
I am very thankful that she is my friend and isn’t going to desert me, but, well she is the kind of person that will give me a while to decide if i want her help, and if i decide i don’t want her help, she will come over and help anyway [which is kinda bad cause i don’t think i want to stop SI-ing anymore].
i just…………..i don’t know what to do. i don’t know if i want to stop anymore. I’ve lost all but a tiny bit of hope, and i have a feeling that i will soon loose that too. =/
any help or advice would be much appreciated.
<3 Katey
Hey. Listen. I SI sometimes, and I really don’t wanna stop either. I have a whole bunch of friends who wanna help me, but I never let them…Over the years, I found out that it is the worse possible thing you could ever do…I finally let one person know, and now we are dating…He injures too, so we try to help eachother. I always feel like if you tell someone who doesn’t SI, they will over eact and do what your friend did/said. but, you gotta look past that and realize that they’re willing to do that because they love you. They want what’s best for you and she really does care. The decision to stop is truly only yours. You have to put your foot down and say no, I don’t need this. If you do decide to stop, it will be the best decision in the world. If you don’t, you have to TRY to let people in so that they can help you…Don’t give up. Don’t let this win. It’s a battle, and you need to keep fighting it. I understand that it can be so hard at times, and all you wanna do is SI, but you have to remember that there are so many better things than that. Keep trying… know you are stronger than to let it win…
hey katey, i know how it feels to not want to stop, sometimes it seems like there is no reason to quit SI, unless there is a chance you will die from it. I’m glad that you told your friend and she wants to help, if you dont want her help, simply try to explain that you are not ready to open up more to her, that you cant stop yet. I know its hard to confront your friends about SI, and im glad you didnt lose that friend, it means she truly cares about you.
hollie