friday the 4th was my birthday. that was supose to be fun. marching band is suppose to be fun and exciting, but yesterday people could see one of my injuries and everyone wanted to know why. its terrible and i cant take it anymore. i play at the football game this friday, i dont think i can because of my injuries, but im gonna have to anyway. i want to. i just cant. i feel aweful for my boyfriend. i can’t even hug him. i feel so guilty and terrible and bad and stupid and ugh! i just cant take all of this anymore!!! !!