I guess I am writing b/c somehow I know I’ve crossed line. I used to always claim I USED to SI because I injured but I stopped. But, then came other ways of hurting myself. I can see that all this serves as distractors from myself, my feelings and I guess even knowing who I am. I guess I feel that if I stop the only things I know, that there is nothing and that brings me to tears that I feel so strongly that there is nothing w/o SI. I always keep upping the ante so to speak, but it seems no matter how close I come, I start right back again.
Even if I said “yes, I have a SI addiction”, I don’t even begin to know where to get help because the regular DBT didn’t help me. It was a nice education process but it never soaked into my feet enough to make application of those skills (NOT dissing DBT at all). I guess I’m just scared. It appears that the program is not operating at this time (the 30 day one) and there are 2 therapists in CO who use the SAFE approach. Is there anyone out there who a: understands what I mean about DBT, b: can tell me more about SAFE and how it helped them, and does anyone think that if I buy the book with the program and just do the program with my therapist that will be enough? Thanks for your comments – brand new here.
Hey, I totally understand how you feel…It just sucks to feel that you can’t get out of the habbit because a new one pops into the picture. It’s very hard to stop when people don’t get what you mean, and not many people do, coming from experience…But don’t give up and NEVER doubt yourself! Keep trying to talk it out, too! It may be hard, but it’ll probably be the best thing you’ve ever decided to do…Remember that you are the only one that can help yourself, but you’ll always have people to back you up 🙂 If you wanna talk more, my e-mail address in niqbel@sncglobal.net
Thanks NiqueBel: I really appreciate the thoughtfulness. My email is paigemartinez@comcast.net. I would enjoy talking more. Recognizing how much I need support right now, also makes me realize that others out there need it too – maybe we can support each other. Today was a little better. My SI was a little less life-threatening and I’m working hard. I wish I could go to the SAFE Intensive but I don’t think it’s up and running, do you know anything about that?