Life grows harder each day,month,year,ect. How hard does it get? I’m going insane over here. When your young life seems like a dream,until reality hits hard. People can keep on telling me that I am not a failer,but I feel the opposite. They can tell me I am a good person,but I feel the opposite. I normally feel the opposite of what people say ( if what they say is good). I can bet I’m being stalked,but I can’t do nothing about it. I always lay awake at night thinking about who I am. I can’t ever seem to figure out who I am though. I am a person that hides behind masks of emotions that are a lies,I pretend to be a totally different person to make people happy. I try my best not to show emotion that shows the real me. As soon as I open my eyes in the morning is when I start to get through my challenge: Life. Life is my challenge. I get through it everyday and so glad to get through it. I’m so surprised that there are people that still are by my side supporting me considering that I am very stuborn. I guess that shows there are people out there that truely care. Even if they don’t understand why you do it, they are still there for you. I am glad that there are people in this world that are like that.
Hey candy…. Um I’m proud of you for being strong probably alot of people are…. Idk of I’ve told this to you or not but in 2 of my classes that I hate (1 that I’m going to give a speech in) um we ALWAYS have to be positive and currently we are talking about positives and negatives, comparisons, self concept, self confidence, and how to deal with it in life…. I hate that class but I’ve learned something that could really help alot of people including you and I…. What I’ve learned is you feel how you think…. So if you think badly about yourself you feel badly about yourself…. One thing I’m trying to do when someone tells me in worthless and shouldn’t be alive I try to tell myself I may be wothless to you and you may want me dead but someone out there believes I’m worth something and wants me here…. It may or may not help but I hope it will!!!! You are such a strong person…. And I believe you can make it!!!!