On 9/3/09 I was at the end of my rope. As I tell people, I keep getting worse. I am a screw up. I can’t figure out how to stop SI’ing. I’m screwed. I don’t know what to do anymore. I wonder if I will give in and make the wrong move. I guess I won’t know. I am a failer….big time. I don’t know how much more I can handle.