a few nights ago, i had a horibble trigger.i was to the brink of SI-ing but i cried for an hour at most. since then i feel so ashamed and scared.i can’t look at myself. i’ve been so distant with my boyfriend,i don’t know how i can be loved by another,why would someone so wonderful want someone as horibble as me…i feel as though i need to be fixed…this isn’t me…