a few nights ago, i had a horibble trigger.i was to the brink of SI-ing but i cried for an hour at most. since then i feel so ashamed and scared.i can’t look at myself. i’ve been so distant with my boyfriend,i don’t know how i can be loved by another,why would someone so wonderful want someone as horibble as me…i feel as though i need to be fixed…this isn’t me…
it’s better to let it out in tears, than to injure yourself.
I know the shame and the fear. AND the not-believing.
But I’ve learned that I am not horrible, not ugly for who I am.
And neither are you.
And you are not weak, you are just learning how to be strong.
Do not wonder why he is with you, be happy he is.
Though it seems unbelievable, he loves you for you.
Do not take distance from him, he can be your savior, your happiness.
Pull him close, for the safe haven he will bring.
And if you need to let out anger, fear, shame.. you can blog it right here.
We’ll get you fixed up, in no time.