If you remember my last blog where I talked about my best friend/ex boyfriend, it’s just getting worse. To start of the day him and his mother got into a arguement before school and he was mad about that so neither one of us was really talking on the way there. But right before we got to school, he took my hand again, and before I could do anything he was like “please, just for a minute”. I didn’t know what to do, he knows I have a boyfriend (again, read my last blog) so I just sat there casue we were only about a minute away from the school anyway. It was very very awkward, I just stared out the window, what else was I supposed to do. And then he walked me to my class and he asked if he could have a hug, and again I couldn’e hurt him, so I hugged him.

He was asking me if I just told him I loved him to keep him from breaking down or if I really meant it. I told him yeah I meant it, your my best friend. and then he brought up that I said I wanted to be with him but not right now. And I said we are together here on the bus, two best friends… he wasn’t happy that I was trying to avoid his main topic (trying to get me back). But it’s just not going to happen I love my boyfriend. My best friend even asked me if I was planning on going to prom, he wants me to go with him because “i’m the only person he’s ever danced with” (a middle school dance 5 years ago)…

I can’t tell him to back off, because I don’t want to hurt him. He’s already very depressed because he want’s to be with me and says it’s hard to do without. I can’t push him back in that deep hole, but I can’t lead him on either,that would be wrong. I just don’t know what to do, even over the smallest things he gets upset. If anyone has any ideas of what I should do, I can’t hurt him agian, but I can’t date him either. I just want him to be happy because I can’t be happy if he’s not happy. Please help me out.