Will I survive this?  All I do is stress out my family…  I’ve started a few huge fights without trying to.  I just seem to annoy my family and get in the way… 

I’ve already started to think about running.  Just taking off.  I know that won’t help anything…  But I keep thinking about it.

I’ve also been thinking “If I just SI a little I’ll feel better and be able to keep going”.  I know that’s not true…  But I feel like it might be. 

I’m not sure what do do but I feel like SIing most of the time now.  If anyone can tell me how to subdue the urges that’d be great!  I’m trying to find distractions right now but it’s not enough…

please help me?