I think I’m pushing myself to much and that I may fall back into SI’ing again… I’ve been clean for almost 8 months but that’s only becuase I’m not allowed to have anything sharp around me and I get checked every now and then. But I’m trying to make myself stronger against not doing it again. I do this by trying to watch certain stuff. It’s really hard last night I almost did it again and I felt like a failure for almost falling back to that. Am I pushing it?? I know it would be hard to watch just something that’s just words that remind me off my past. So by looking at certain things pushing it?? If so, how could I get myself stronger against not falling into that hole again?? I desperately need help for these questions plz and thx