i went back to SIing earlier this week and now i cant stop and i just dont feel like im worth the hurt of my friends or deserve my friends and i dont know what to do im tired of the scars but i cant stop i thought i was done but i came back to it and now i cant stop again
It’s like a racetrack. It takes more effort to stop then it does to start. Giving in is so easy, it’s saying no that’s tough. But, think of it this way. Would you rather wake up the morning after you get an urge, and have to look at the scars you put there the night before, or wake up feeling proud that you said no and you defeated the impulse? That’s just how I look at it. Saying no sounds so hard, but when you view it that way, it becomes easy, and you’ll eventually get yourself into recovery. Just keep telling yourself all of that^^ and also, use your resources. They can and will help you.
<3rescue
I totally feel were you are coming from. I stopped SI for about three months now which is kinda an accomplishment. But every once in a while i have an urge. But i look at the scars that i have. It hurts me when i see these scars cause i know there never going to go away. When my friends found out about me SI myself they were really hurt and like you i felt as if i didn’t deserve any of my friends. When i get an urge i usually try to distract myself into doing something else. I usually take my ipod and blast music as loud as i can into my ears. I know its not healthy for my ears but it helps me. I am here for you. If you ever need to talk or advice email me at brokenxdreams123@aol.com
-kar
I got a new email just to let you know. Its emoxlove098@aol.com, Like i said if you need advice or need to talk. best of wishes
-kar