I’ve been SI for awhile now. I have a support system but sometimes i feel like they are against me, or they don’t understand its just so frustrating. I go to therapy and all but all I want to do is SI. Lately my urges have been getting stronger, I fight it but when I do SI, it doesn’t satisfy me. My mom and therapist said i may need to go to a psych ward. I went to the hospital once, that made me even more depressed. I feel lost and alone, i feel like my friends don’t want to hear about this anymore. The question is what should I do?
there are plenty of things you can do:
-try yoga. when you have a injuring urge, focusing on something else can shift your mind away from negative thoughts
-work on meditation. pick a mantra, such as “i can overcome this” that will help you focus on what you WANT to do, not what you feel the urge to do
i understand your hesitation to go to the hospital. maybe you can talk to them about doing a partial hospitalization program? i did that and it worked out for me.
good luck!
^She’s right. It’s great to have outlets, mantra’s, and assistance. You need to find yourself and fill your voids…that’s the most important thing, because then you can live a life of contentment. Seek extra help through a journal, and really let out your feelings, through words. Talk to a Higher Power. Sometimes when I feel like no one understands, I talk to Him, and He just listens, He’s never against me. It’s the greatest feeling in the world, a talk with God. Something less severe…try an inpatient program for SI’ers, like S.A.F.E. I’ve heard it’s really helpful, although I’ve never been there myself…I’ve considered it though. Best of luck, and if you need to, you email me, okay?
<3rescue
I have been to therapy places many times when i was SI myself. Ive been SI free for 3 months now. Therapy didn’t help me at all. I felt as if my friends didn’t care or they didn’t understand. But the truth was that my mind was making me think all those things. My friends did care but they were scared and weren’t sure what to do. I know how you feel. When i had the urge i usually write a poem or blast my music in my ears as loud as possible. I also keep a diary/journal were i express my feelings. At times i take a piece of paper and write down all my papers and i then destroy the piece of paper. It works for me. But if you ever feel lost or alone and have no one to talk to you can email me at emoxlove098@aol.com, best of wishes
-kar