okay, so i stopped SI for three months. then stared again for a week now. made my boyfriend cry. passed out at marching band camp. starting my first year of high school on tuesday. and all i want to do is SI.  

i use to have an ED problem. i feel discusting. ive been talking to my boy friend about it and he says im beautiful just the way i am, and not when i weigh less.  that should make me feel better, right? so whats wrong with me?

i still hate my self and the way i look.   and…     i need help.