It was my one month yesterday. I ended up injuring last night, becasue of the things someone else decided to say to me. I knew I had control over it, but I did it anyway. I feel like I wish I could have stopped myself, and at certain points, I actually could have stopped myself. I made such the wrong decision, I was really just hotheaded and not listening to my own thoughts. I have no thoughts right now, and I didn’t last night. I feel so panicked, like it won’t go away, but my therapist and I talked this morning. It’s just a minor setback, and I’m going to forgive myself–though right now I find this all such a hard thing to do. It was so easy to fall off the bandwagon, and I was doing so well…but now I’m fully off and I feel like I have control of nothing…not even my own mind.