Not joking. I think I’m curse to my family…
Every time I start to feel better and like I don’t need to punish myself through SI, my family goes weird!
Like my mom keeps snapping at me, she told me to do whatever I want with the videos, then she tells me that I have to go through all the unmarked videos, THEN last night I made a comment about having to do that and she went crazy on me! Saying that she thought I was just going to disregard them and dump them. I told her that was my plan until she told me I had to go through them. She said that she never told me to do that!
Or my sister… I don’t know what I did but she keeps glaring at me or giving me that “Can’t you just leave me alone?” look. She and I seem to be getting into a lot of fights…. And she seems to think she’s more upstanding then me or something, because sometimes I swear. She’s making me feel small, and not just because she’s bigger then me.
I think my little brother is the most abusive in my toward me… Funny huh? I used to help keep him clean and help feed him now he seems determined to drive me into the dirt. I don’t even say anything and I’ve ticked him off! And when he’s ticked I suffer… Does my mom care? She blames me for ticking him off!
Maybe I should never open my mouth… Maybe I should just do my work and try not to breath near them. Everything I do seems to offend them… And when their offended I get hurt… Mostly because I don’t like getting yelled at.
I’m just a worthless curse to all those who come near me…