I can’t do it. I’ve tried so hard to stop, but it seems like everything I do is pointless. My SI has only gotten worse since I tried to stop. It recently got worse.  I know I need to stop. I want to stop. But I still can’t. I’ve found myself isolating myself from my friends. I shut them out when they try to help, and I think it’s frustrating them. I see them starting to give up on me. And as I see them slipping away, I realize how badly I don’t want to be alone in this.