I can’t do it. I’ve tried so hard to stop, but it seems like everything I do is pointless. My SI has only gotten worse since I tried to stop. It recently got worse. I know I need to stop. I want to stop. But I still can’t. I’ve found myself isolating myself from my friends. I shut them out when they try to help, and I think it’s frustrating them. I see them starting to give up on me. And as I see them slipping away, I realize how badly I don’t want to be alone in this.
whatever you do, do not isolate yourself anymore. they are the ones who can help you the most, besides your parents or guardians. if they understand, you need to talk to them. or this is just going to get worse and worse until you can’t control it.you have to trust your friends to help you whenever you have the urge. they can save you from yourself.
No matter how much you resent and push away, you are never going to be totally alone. There are people who understand you, people who can help you, and it’s about time you just seriously admit to your friends that you need help. You have to want this for yourself as much as they do though, and you have to be willing to do whatever it takes. You also need to let them know that if you are willing to get better, they have to be willing to help at all costs, and that just because you say you want to be better doesn’t make it go right away…it comes with patience. Just start off slow, you’ll do fine.
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