everyone has a secret
including me
lift up my covering
and you will see
is it for attention?
or am i really hurting?
i dont even know
but those scars are still lurking.
{that was written by me. i literally just started selfharming. im so confused. i get mad at myself cuz i feel like im just doing it to do it, like i want to get caught but yet i dont cause im embarrassed. but i really am hurting. and then i feel like “no your injuries are not enough your not really si-ing”. i start crying, so i do more. im so confused. im going to try and stop on my own. i cant be doing this. im a supporter of To Write Love On Her Arms. im a hypocrite right now. im lost 🙁 }
ive been through the same thing.
i would never cover up the evidance almost to show it off
i wanted someone to notice cause it would make me feel better.
but dont doubt yourself, any type of hurting yourself is SI ing and its not a good thing.
From my experiance your feeling that because you’re mad at yourself, its almost like a wierd form of denial.
Try and think that if you dont stop now, even though you dont think so it could get worse.
If youve just started to talk to someone who you know really cares about you
its probably the most scariest thing possible but its a huge relief
keep talking to them every time you think your going to SI
the best thing to do is get help now even if you feel you dont need it and you can do it for yourself
make sure you dont loose yourself in everything
stay stong
-rachel 🙂
Read TWLOHA’s blog from November 2008…its about a Postsecret card. It may help you clear things up about your hypocrisy towards them.
Other than that, don’t feel confused. Your injuries don’t have to be measured, any injury is big enough to be a problem. Never second guess yourself…no matter how often, how much, or how harshly you harm yourself, it doesn’t make you any less worth something than the next person. You’re still a person, and you’re still loved. Always remember this.