i didnt do anything last night. im kind of proud of my self, but dissappointed and really mad because i still want to SI. im playing my mellophone so i can just distract my self. im just thinking about seeing my friends and boy friend later today at band camp. so anyone out there, just think of one, even if its small, happy thought. something to look forward to, anything. and just focus on that. thats the only way im staying strong now.