i feel cold. sick. like the world is moving to fast round me, spinning out of control but im lying on my bed not moving at all. The ticking of my clock getting louder and louder by the second. Lyk the beating of a heart – never ending. I tried to tell my friend last night, gave some hints but she never caught on. I feel lyk shes against me – lyk everyone is against me. no one in the world i can trust. not even me. my urg to si is getting larger by the ticking seconds, and theres no one to help me with it. thats why i come here to feel safe. comforted. i never wanna leave cos i no if i do i just might fall again. i feel lyk i can save my self if i had someone to trust, but theres no one…no one at all.