I have been SAFE for 197 days!! That being said everyday is taken as it comes be it minute by minute or hour by hour. At least now I know that I can reach out to my counselor about absolutely anything. I know counselors say that, but I didn’t think my counselor would understand about the self-injury. Once I told her it was like the theraputic relationship did a complete 180 in a different ‘for the better’ direction. If my counselor would not have agreed to read the book Bodily Harm and go through the SAFE program with me I would not have 197 days. It’s just nice to have a place to go like this site or my counselors office where someone understands. Right now I don’t know I just feel the need to reach out. So much has changed since I decided to no longer make that choice to hurt myself and in a good way.
Sometimes I feel really lonely, because I’m having to look for a new circle of friends my old friends abused drugs, alcohol and some where self-injurer (who are still active). Each day that comes is a new opportunity to continue to learn how to take care of myself instead of hurt myself. I’m not sure what I was expecting out of this writing, but I feel better and to those who read this thanks.