Just joining this website has made me feel a lot better. I have been Siing since january (if not before). I keep getting worse. When I’m sad it feels like everything, i forget about all the happy times. I started using SI as a way to deal. It gave me some control over my life. I have problems with liking myself and i have a lot of stress in my life. I feel sad a lot and i have to hide it. I’m afraid of what people would think if they knew how I really felt. I think I’m probably addicted to SI. I think about it a lot. I look at a tool and think that’d it be great to use. I’m 15 and I’m going into my sophmore year of high school. I have a lot of life left ahead of me, but sometimes I feel like I don’t want to live it. I don’t want to think this way anymore. I want to find a better way. I don’t want my mom to worry about me anymore. And this website has given me hope that maybe it’s possible. I’d love it if some people emailed me. Because I know you’ll understand. my email is swim_star@comcast.net