My friends and I have made a pact to tell each other everything, to be there for one another. I truly believe in it too, at least for them. I would be there for them in a second. Yet I can’t bring myself to let them see me that weak. I never cry in public anymore, at least not other than a sad movie or story. I let them see me cry that day, from thinking about it. We were all crying, but unlike them, I couldn’t let myself reveal why. I can’t let myself seem weak, because I’m afraid they will use my weakness against me. It’s always the people that I love and care about the most. The people who say they love and care about me. The very same people who SHOULD. They are the people that always hurt me the most, the worst. So how can I let anyone else get that close?