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ive felt this way and im sure u have to and SI is ur only way out right? thats wat i thought. but wat if there could be another way. a safe way. a way to be out of this dark hole of depression i have burried myself in. wat if. phfft that seems stupid dont it??seems unrealistic, cant be possible. ive been SIing for a year or so idk could be longer or shorter. and i no i need help ive tried to get help ive told my best friend and shes been there but its not enough. ive developed an addiction and each each injury pushed that “wat if?” farther and farther away into ‘dream land of never gonna happen but i hope one day will’ (u no wat im talking about) id been good clean of SIing for a couple weeks but its turned into a couple days now and i need to bring that wat if bac from ‘dlonghbihodw’ into the world of reality. of now. need to change that wat if into wat is.
worthless
useless
stupid i no longer want thos to exist..
I understand just how you feel. I used to feel the same way too, but it was because I was failing at helping my friends stop. And I didn’t know why they were doing… and I started doing it. I never meant to, but those words were controlling my thoughts. When I realized this, I did research. (That sounds so lame… but it helped me so much). And I tried to find EVERYTHING out about it. I guess you could say I was a hypocrite, because I was struggling with it, too. But… I realized that those words that were playing in our heads, are avoidable. If you hear “You’re worthless.” think “I’m important.” and if you hear “You’re useless”. think “I’m strong.” and if you hear “You’re stupid.” think “I’m smart.” After a few weeks of doing this, it became so natural for my brain to just automatically think “I’m important, and strong, and smart.” And before I knew it, those words were only whispers. I feel so much better. Those weeks were the hardest weeks for me, but I kept hoping and just praying that they would end, and now they’re only faint. I know that you can do it also. I wish you all the best.
Love,
A