ive felt this way and im sure u have to and SI is ur only way out right? thats wat i thought. but wat if there could be another way. a safe way. a way to be out of this dark hole of depression i have burried myself in. wat if. phfft that seems stupid dont it??seems unrealistic, cant be possible. ive been SIing for a year or so idk could be longer or shorter. and i no i need help ive tried to get help ive told my best friend and shes been there but its not enough. ive developed an addiction and each each injury pushed that “wat if?” farther and farther away into ‘dream land of never gonna happen but i hope one day will’ (u no wat im talking about) id been good clean of SIing for a couple weeks but its turned into a couple days now and i need to bring that wat if bac from ‘dlonghbihodw’ into the world of reality. of now. need to change that wat if into wat is.
stupid i no longer want thos to exist..