I injured last night. I cannot believe that I am still doing this. I cannot believe that I feel this low that I have to injure just to cope with it all. And the strangest thing was that this time I didn’t do it for a punishment. I did it because I just wanted to. Because I wanted to have all of the emotional pain match up with physical pain that I can be reminded of everyday. Every time that I move I feel it. I feel the pain. I regret it, yet, I don’t. I’ve been wanting to and now all that sadness was released. It’s weird how it works that way. But it does. It feels as though all of the emotional pain gets released when you match it with the physical pain. And that is why I did it. End.
Lots of people do cut and they think it’s for no reason but usually there is an underlying cause that maybe you can’t understand yet. You can heal. I know you can. The emotional pain isn’t released. If you think it is. ask yourself “What price am I paying when I do this?” There’s more to life than this. There are other ways to release stress. Never give up hope. I’m praying for you.
Love,
b
I know how you feel. I feel the say way. It’s like I’m so ashamed of it, and I’d do anything to hide it or stop. Yet at the same time, I like it. I want people to notice, so maybe then I can talk about it, but I know if it ever came up I’d deny it.
i completely understand.
I always want to do it again, even though i know the shame i’ll feel afterwards.
It’s the strangest feeling.
to hate and love something so much all at the same time.
Sometimes I feel like that too, but like someone else said, I always stop and think “Is it really worth it?” and somehow… that makes me stop instantly, everytime. I know you can do it, too.
Love,
A
i feel lyk that all the time i really want to. and i almost did but i threw down tool and came here. it helps me makes me feel not alone and released i hope that if i make it thro tonight ill mak it thro tomorrow to its a one day at a time thing
thats me. i know how you feel. except i never did it for the emotional pain match up with the physical pain. i always did it to punish. 😛
thats an innappropriate face, haha. 😀