Im so confused. Im on vacation right now, and I met this guy. Hes really nice and kind, and he said he likes me alot, but its like, I look at him and I want to cry. Every time hes around, I think of my ex. Its been three months, shouldnt I be over him by now!? I really do like this guy, but… I feel like if I dont really want to be with him, deep down, then I just shouldnt. But I dont want to hurt him, and I dont want to get hurt.
And another thing, we (Me and him and our famalies) were swiming at this river, and the swim suite I was wearing was just barly covering my injuries. I stood up on a rock, and he was swimind next to me, about eye-level with where the scars are and I think he saw some of them. When I looked over, he was looking towards me, but turned away really fast with this wierd expression. Since then, ive been really quiet. So now, not only does being around him remind me of my ex, whom im pretty sure I still love, but I also get paraniod and scared, which brings up a lot of other thoughts and I want to SI. I just want this vacation to be over. As nice as he is, all I want right now is to not see this guy ever again. He leaves tommorow, and Im really happy, but that makes me feel bad. Now Im just plain avoiding him. I dont know how to feel or what to do. Im mad at myself too, for letting a guy make me feel like this after not knowing him for very long. I should have known this was a bad idea or see nthis coming or something! Sorry, im just venting right now, though nobody probably cares. Just needed to talk.
I care. everyone gets over someone at their own time, you just aren’t ready for a new guy yet. If you wanna talk- jessicaaaxx3@yahoo.com
I guess thats true. I really thought I was over him till this happened, and i think it just made me mad. And thanks, but my mom watches my emails, so I cant talk to anybody, espically about SI. Shed freak. Thanks for replying, its nice to know someone cares somewhat 🙂
You probably won’t see him again in your life once And believe me, you’re fine. It took me 6 months to get over my ex boyfriend, and they were painful, but I did it. You can, too. And be proud of your scars, but you don’t have to explain yourself to anyone, unless you want to. Always remember that. I’m here if you need me, even if you can’t email.
<3 rescue
I know that feeling. About ex’s. I was with a guy for about 5 months and I really liked him, and the over the summer, I was molested by my friend’s brother and I couldn’t tell my former boyfriend, so I broke up with him… and then I told him but… it was too late I guess. And I was really broken up about it. But then after about a year, I found someone else. So there is never “THE ONE”. I believe you can love again even if you think that your world is falling apart at that one moment. But… I think you should just wait. And I’m pretty sure you will KNOW when that right person comes along again. It takes time, but talk to your friends, and just love being single. 🙂 I know the time will come when you will feel like you wanna try something out again. And it will be new, and it will be everything that you want. I still talk to my ex and I still love him a little, but I know he’s happy and I know he cares about me. And that’s all that really counts. Don’t be ashamed of your scars. If you catch a glimpse of them, let it be filled with hope. For how far you’ve come, and how far you want to go. I care, too, even though I don’t know you. But I know what you’re going through. I hope you find what you’re looking for. 🙂
Love,
A
don’t feel bad for venting…that’s what this site is for.
i know the feeling of ex boyfriends. don’t feel like you should be over him…you’re not wrong to not be over him<–(sorry if that doesn’t make much sense)
i’ve been broken up with my ex bf for 18 months and i’m still not over him and doubt i ever will be…
i’ve felt the same way you’re feeling, when you say that whenever you look at him you want to cry, so please don’t think that you’re alone.
i have a blog, that i use to just write and vent…and although i’m the only one who knows the URL, it makes me feel better to get my feeling out in the open…so maybe you want to try it? email me if you want to talk more-
reconcileddreams@gmail.com