i finally was happy. i really, truly was happy. but for some reason, the past has come back to haunt me. i still can’t let go of him. two nights in a row i’ve cried about him. i haven’t cried since december (that last time i SIed), and now i’m crying over someone who’s not even part of my life anymore. how can that be?
all those smiles, all those hugs, they were all a lie. so how come i still think of him? i know he doesn’t care. but i wish he would. i know he thinks i’m just a stupid, little, gullible girl that fell for his tricks. but i want him to think about me the way i think about him.
i know the reason for all of this is because i never got any closure and i never will. so does that mean i’ll always be this way? will i ever be able to let go of him? they say you’ll always remember your first love. well, i don’t know if it was love, but i do know that i’ll still remember him forever. even though he hurt me and broke my trust in people, i’ll always remember him.
I know how you feel. And it takes time to let go of people who made that kind of impact on your life. I thought I’d think of this boy (I’ll call him W) forever. I thought I’d always feel the same way. I just wanted to understan why he couldn’t think of me the way I thought of him. So I wrote about him. Poems and qoutes to help me feel better. Maybe you could try that. Writing is a grate coping skill. “W” hurt me and your guy hurt you but they’re the ones misssing out for not realizing what grate people we are. Remember time heals all wounds. Though itr may seem like forever untill it does it will and you’ll be happy again.
I’ll tell you first hand,it wont last forever.I know how it feels to have someone be your world,the person you depend on to get you through the day.And when thats gone,you feel lost like what are you suppose to do? But it’s gonna hurt bad before it gets better;it has too.But once you accept things realize that you as a strong person should NEVER waste your time on a guy who isnt putting in as much effort as you.If he doesnt care,why should you? People like that arent are worth your time,they’ll only bring you down and make you feel worse.Never let someone think they have the upper hand on you,its gives them all the power.And then you get strung along by your heart.First loves are are the deepest,first time feeling things youve never felt before.So it makes it so much harder too let go.But you will love so many others and youll once again fall in love,get your heart broken or break heart.It’s how we learn,because it leads us up to finding the one person we were ment for,and when you find that ONE everything in your past will have been worth it.:)