Everytime I try and stop the SI…I can go for a few days and something sets me off and I am right back where I started and worse!! It never gets better so y do I think it will? I feel like I am fooling myself and it doesn’t feel good!!! I have been struggling daily with the thoughts of SI and even though I do try and focus on other more positive realms….it doesnt seem to be working for me! When will things get better and easier?? Right now…it feels like it NEVER will!! I am trying really hard to stay safe but it never lasts long! I keep going one day at a time and hope that someday I can beat this!! Struggling……
“never say never”…
i too thought i’d never be freed from SI,but i saw how much it affected the people i loved….and i woke up,try opening up to people but understand that there reaction may or may not be as you like,but having a friend who reacts very bad towards your SI doesn’t mean that they don’t care/love you,its because they can’t bare to see you do this to yourself.why don’t you try talking to people/writing or even reading a book when you feel to SI? it helped me maybe it can help you…just don’t give up,you can do it…i believe in you <3
I used to say that to myself on a daily basis that “when will it get better?” And I promise with all my heart that it does. It did for me and if you can’t stop yourself from doing this on your own, you really truly need to get help. It’s not worth it to go through each day feeling awful because the good out-weighs the bad by an unbelievable amount. I too believe in you. Good luck with your journey.