Everytime I try and stop the SI…I can go for a few days and something sets me off and I am right back where I started and worse!! It never gets better so y do I think it will? I feel like I am fooling myself and it doesn’t feel good!!! I have been struggling daily with the thoughts of SI and even though I do try and focus on other more positive realms….it doesnt seem to be working for me! When will things get better and easier?? Right now…it feels like it NEVER will!! I am trying really hard to stay safe but it never lasts long! I keep going one day at a time and hope that someday I can beat this!! Struggling……