whats wrong with me?why cnt i stop thinking of SI?i feel as if i’m slowly falling into a deep abyss where i’m at a lost for anything and everything, just by the thought of SI.it physically hurts me just to know that i’m considering this,yet again[after a year].i’m only 18,what 18yr old hates herself so much that she can’t let anyone touch her because she’s so ashamed of who she is or what she looks like?!thts just wrong…maybe crazy.the one person i never shut out of my life,i can’t look at anymore because i feel that being like this hurts him…what’s a crazy twisted girl to do!