I’ve seen some people with in this one week who self-harm.  It was easy to tell, one girl had scars I saw.  Then one guy was wearing long sleeves, but when he reached across me I saw…  

The girl showed signs that she had stopped.  But that guy…  I wanted to talk to him but… 

Is it normal to feel ashamed about not having scars?  I’m not going to lie I have worked myself over pretty good a couple of times, but I have no scars from that.  I always scar!  If I fall off my bike, if I trip, but not when I hurt myself.  So how can I tell someone “I know what you’re going through and I want to help you” when I can’t prove it? 

I mean how many of us have ignored the people and adults saying “I know what you’re going through, I was a Teen once too”?  I know I did all the time.  Because, come on.  Like anyone who hasn’t been in these shoes knows what it feels like.

I think keeping quiet was a trigger for me…  I’ve seen myself hurting myself again, like I used to, in my head.  I feel ashamed for not saying anything to that guy.  I feel ashamed that I don’t have any scars when others will have to wear theirs forever…

I mean what’s so special about me that I didn’t scar?

I want to hurt really badly right now…  I’m trying to stand strong.  But it’s hard when I’m alone…