i had injured for a long time, not very often but often enough, i didnt know what else to do it just seemed so easy and made me feel a little better. i was in control and nobody could stop me, but when i started doing it almost everyday my friends started to get really worried and threatened to tell people that i was injuring, which made me pull away from them and do it even more. it seemed like anything could be a trigger and that there was no way out, but then i met my current boyfriend and he talked to me, he never tried to turn me in and i got to trusting him. he made me stop as my choice not by force. and although i only relapsed once, im scared that if we break up ill go back to my old habits.