i had injured for a long time, not very often but often enough, i didnt know what else to do it just seemed so easy and made me feel a little better. i was in control and nobody could stop me, but when i started doing it almost everyday my friends started to get really worried and threatened to tell people that i was injuring, which made me pull away from them and do it even more. it seemed like anything could be a trigger and that there was no way out, but then i met my current boyfriend and he talked to me, he never tried to turn me in and i got to trusting him. he made me stop as my choice not by force. and although i only relapsed once, im scared that if we break up ill go back to my old habits.
If you attach to people like you have now, its much much harder to recover on your own. Because nothing lasts forever, and people don’t always stay. I hate to say it, but its true. You need to learn how to love yourself and stand on your own two legs, even though it’s okay to be loved sometimes, you just have to know how to exist without it WHILE you have it in your life too. You know what I’m saying? Hope this helps.
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