I haven’t S.I. since 9-7-08… I’ve had times where I REALLY wanted to. Then it all seemed fine, I didn’t want to hurt anymore… But… Now I want to again. I…
I don’t know what’s made me want to S.I. again! I’m not sure if it’s my brother always interupting me when I try to talk or his teasing or if… If I’m just weak and my old habit is trying to come back…
I feel really stupid because… I’m so close to going a year without this “cure” and now… Now I want to throw it all away? What’s wrong with me?
i understand how you feel..it’s been a little over a year now that i’ve si….it gets rough but hang in there,you know you won’t feel better if u did si…i think the fact that u can go on without hurting yourself but still can feel,shows you’re actually pretty strong 🙂 …hang in there ..
There is nothing WRONG with you. It comes back sometimes, and we have to accept and get rid of it as best as we can. What other people say may affect us, but I’ve really learned to just not even care what other people have to say anymore, 100 percent. Just let it bounce off of you, because those who judge are never worth it. All that matters is the good stuff…what we can do for ourselves, how we can contribute to others, and what we need to keep ourselves clean. Fill your voids with hobbies and people and God…this will get you through.
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someone told me once that if i was having problems not to assume something was wrong with me. don’t give up. our struggles make us stronger. having problems is a part of being human. it is up to us to take the problem and learn from it.
“the difference between stumbling blocks and stepping stones is how we use them.”
Could the anniversary be a trigger? I just ask because you mention it at the beginning and end of your post.
I feel for you. I just went through a few days of intense urges after a while of having very few. I made it though. There’s something on the other side. Think of all the things that have helped you to get where you are.