a year has gone by since i last SI…everything felt so…..different,good different….i think…but now here i am again feeling totally alone…no one around me understands how much this haunts me.my boyfriend seems to care so much,he sought me through the two yrs of  SI and alcoholism and now that im thinking of it again….i just hate that i’m letting him,together with my family,down ..i haven’t done anything to myself…..yet…but lately i just feel soooo….i can’t even put it in words!i just need…comfort..i know who i am today doesn’t want to go back to who i fought and got rid of…