I’ve tried covering up my pain with a smile and flirting. With makeup and hairspray. I’m the girl you don’t suspect at first sight.
I’m the kind, that if something would happen, only those closest to me would be able to look back and see the hints. No one else would be able to.
I lasted three months, and then did SI because of stress. Nothing NEARLY as bad as I’ve ever done. I don’t really WANT to do anything right now. But..I don’t want to be stuck here.
If I knew for a fact what comes after this life, I might give myself some peace. But, I know that that is not for me to decide. And I couldn’t hurt my friends and family like that. I couldn’t. I wouldn’t be able to move on.
So…for now, I am going to stay strong, and find something to get me through the days.