I haven’t gotten any sleep since July 4th. Evey day since then, my mind hasn’t been able to cope with anything. I feel as though a part of myself has died, and maybe I’m in mourning. I can’t seem to really smile, or to really laugh. Everything is fake now. Everything I thought was true, is nothing to me anymore. And the hardest part about each day, is not being able to lay my head down and hope for a better tomorrow. It’s almost as if my body is telling me I don’t deserve to sleep, therefore, I won’t.
You deserve everything in the world that resembles hope and happiness, we all do. Tomorrow can be better, if you make it that way. There’s always room for a little infinite happiness in our lives. Parts of us die all over the place, each for different reasons, at different stages in time. But it happens. We lose things, we gain things, feelings happen, people come, people go. But we ALWAYS have ourselves, and that’s what we should value the most–ourselves. Love yourself before you do anything else. Because in the end, you are the first priority in your life.
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