I’ve been an injurer since i was 12 years old and i am at age 19 right now. I’ve never joined a blog, never really discussed it with anyone other than the therapist i use to go to. My family knows but we aren’t the kind of people to go into detail about things, we ignore as much as possible. I stopped for 2 years but started up again december 2008 when i moved into my boyfriends house. I wanna find a solution other than medication, other than being put into a hospital and other than talking to someone who doesn’t understand how i feel at all. Its now as easy as it may seem to stop injuring to some people.
I just wanna hear that someone understands my story, that i’m not crazy for feeling this way and that threes people out there who are going through the same emotions. This is the age in my life where i should be enjoying my adolescence. Going out like i use to. I’m 19 but i have the stress of a 30 something.
There’s only so long i can hold things in and i don’t wanna do something that will lead to bad.
i do understand. i feel the exact same way. i go to a phsyciatrist and take medication but it doesnt seem to help and it doesnt feel right. i try to talk to my friends about it but it never works out. it is ok to feel this way and be emotional. you arent crazy to SI. so many people do this and it is ok. why did u start injuring once u moved in with ur boyfriend? does he know about this?
it will all be ok. time will heal wounds
My boyfriend does know about this, i told him a few months into our relationship and we’ve been together for 2year nows. With the stress of leaving my home, my family is an hr away i don’t see them much, and the stress of his parents, we don’t get along very well at all. I wasnt working at the time i had fear of not getting a job, just so many things came into play for me to start cutting again i could handle all of it. Plus the first thing that triggered it is at the time he had been neglectful and i cheated.
You aren’t crazy. Believe me. And you’ve come to the correct place, because we all understand, I assure you of that. When you say that people in hospitals, counselors, outsiders don’t understand, well, for the most part, you’re correct. But, they try hard to understand, because they care. Their liives are devoted to making you want to get better, and helping you along the way. The greatest advice I can give you, is to work with what you’ve got. If you take medication, embrace it. Although it has downfalls, its designed to make you feel at a norm. Just embrace your resources, take each day one day at a time, and you’ll be alright.
<3,rescue
I’m not on anything, i don’t take anything and i don’t see anyone. For me as a person and i’m only speaking for myself. To take medicine and go see someone is weak, if i can do it, i need to do it on my own for myself and not rely on someone or something else. I wasn’t raised to be dependent on other things and other people. I shouldn’t have to resort to resources that don’t work to get my help.
Taking medication, talking about your problems to a professional, they are not signs of weakness. People do these things every single day, and they lead normal lives sometimes, even. You don’t have to feel weak to do this, because all it does is help you. I just recently discovered my depression, and I’m allowing myself to be open to the medications or treatments that the doctors I’m about to see might throw at me. You have to be willing to help yourself, because really, that’s all this is…these people don’t want to catch you at a weak moment, they want to help you so you don’t constantly feel weak. You’re loved, and you should let the professionals prove that to you. You can’t do this alone, none of us can.
<3, rescue